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Bloom

There once was a field of people- I mean, flowers. Definitely talking about flowers here…

Flowers

They all stood with their hearts- that is, I mean, their blooms of flower petals- they stood with their blooms completely closed up, in tight little buds with not a single petal showing.

The sad part of this story is that they all wanted desperately to open up, but they were too afraid to do so.

There was a deep fear in all of them that kept their buds tightly closed. A fear that if they should bloom, they would be mocked, ridiculed, and treated badly.

It was a strong and valid fear based on shared trauma. They had all learned that if they revealed their blooms, vicious weeds would judge their petals harshly, insult their colors, and try to strangle them, telling them that their blooms were all wrong.

Weeds

There were many weeds among the flowers, and by their nature, they were thorny, nasty, and cruel. The weeds stole the resources needed by the flowers, and thrived in the miserable ugliness they created.

The weeds told everyone that weeds were the coolest, but they were wrong, just as they were wrong about most things.

Unfortunately, some of the flowers believed the weeds, because they were just simple flowers, after all- and they were easily scared by the relentless cruelty and fear-mongering of the weeds.

The weeds hated the fact that they could never create anything as valuable as the love the flowers hid inside their tightly closed buds. So they belittled the flowers and did everything they could do to stop the flowers from blooming.

When the flowers quit blooming, the cruel weeds felt more powerful, less ugly, and less useless. This is because weeds only know how to create misery and hardship for others, and they can only appreciate something if it causes pain for someone else.

Paradise Lost

So it was, that with all of their cruelty and stupidity, these ugly weeds managed to create an environment in which the flowers could never dare to bloom.

The weeds filled the spaces where the blooms should have been, and the weeds consumed everything meant to feed and care for the poor flowers.

In the process, the weeds created a toxic orange filth, a filth so terrible that it had no limits. This filth even clogged up the waterways, and filled the sky with a terrible stain of disgusting corruption that poisoned everything with misery.

So the land, water, and air were ruined, and filled with a sad and toxic darkness. The world was strangled by greedy weeds and smothered with orange filth to the point that nobody dared to bloom.

The fear was oppressive, and you could feel it in the air and see its influence on every bit of depleted, cold, weed-infested land.

All the flowers quit blooming, and their buds shut up tightly against the cruelty of the world, which had become overrun with hateful, cruel, orange-crusted weeds.

Connection

But one day a flower that would be Blue, discovered a powerful flower stem growing on the edge of the meadow.

This flower stem on the edge of the meadow had somehow found a path towards the light, and had managed to avoid the cruelty of the weeds.

In a startling act of innocence, this flower had grown Straight and Strong, and formed a bud that was so completely closed up against the orange filth of the land that it proved impenetrable to the corruption.

This towering flower had a powerful strength of purpose which was conspicuously absent in the surrounding weeds. The strength of purpose in this flower had already followed its nature to grow far beyond the ugliness of the weeds.

The weeds could not understand how this stem of a flower, Straight and Strong, could be so tall, so they convinced themselves it wasn’t real, and then they all ignored it, as stupid weeds are known to do.

However, the ignorance of the weeds could not change the fact that this flower had somehow grown so strong that it now defied the strangling weeds. In this surprising act of growing true to your nature, Straight and Strong demonstrated an ability that both startled and awakened the flower that would be Blue.

In a flash of wonder, the flower who would be Blue lost all control and asked Straight and Strong how it had managed to grow so tall and powerful?

In this moment of excitement and wonder, the flower who would be Blue forgot to be afraid to bloom, and completely opened their bud. In doing this simple thing, they also exposed their bloom of True Blue petals.

Transformation

The incredible beauty of Blue was a shocking revelation.

The delicate and beautiful blue petals stood in outrageous contrast to the surrounding orange filth that covered everything.

This sudden spot of color broke the spell of the cruel weeds, and as the spell of cruelty broke, a wave of compassion washed over the land, cracking open the crust of orange filth.

This unexpected display of Blue had even melted the resolve of Straight and Strong for an instant, softening their bud in that briefest of moments.

In that moment, the bud of Straight and Strong began to open in response to Blue, without hesitation, without even thinking. It was a heartfelt response to the beauty of Blue showing their true colors, in an unguarded moment of sincere wonder, connection, and respect.

In this moment of innocent recognition, a simple trust formed between the two flowers. As their true nature was revealed, they found a bond of safety and trust in their compassionate awareness of each other.

Such strength radiated from this connection that the other flowers couldn’t help but notice.

The startling example of Straight and Strong responding to the beautiful sincerity of Blue was impossible to ignore. Everyone watched in wonder as the closed-up bud of Straight and Strong suddenly exploded in an array of golden petals.

As Straight and Strong opened its bud, the magnificent petals unfolded into a dazzling bloom of a giant sunflower, rising high above everyone in the meadow.

Straight and Strong’s petals fully emerged, transforming itself into its ultimate true nature, Sunflower.

Sunflower stood tall, and bloomed like a smile.

Sunflower bloomed a beacon of awareness, and a golden display of inspiration, dazzling with beauty and potential.

So impressive was this act of Sunflower blooming, that the surrounding area was illuminated with a new light and sense of wonder, and a shared yearning to be free of the orange filth that had been strangling the land.

Clarity

In this moment, it was suddenly inconceivable that such glory could have ever been contained and hidden from the world. The display of beauty and courage was as strong and comforting as a giant hug from all the mothers that had ever loved a child.

As this warming of the land progressed, the other flowers were likewise transformed, and they all became aware of their own blooms that they had been keeping hidden from the world.

Suddenly everyone wondered why they had been so afraid- and then they began to wonder about other things they had been afraid of. As the sense of wonder grew, a feeling of safety followed, and then each of the flowers began to open their blooms and reveal their true colors to each other and to the world.

As more and more flowers opened up and expressed themselves, they allowed their blooms to fully open in riotous displays of color and love.

The beauty was transformative, and what had been a dark and scary landscape overwhelmed with orange cruelty, was now a place of compassion, truth, and beauty. A place where individuals are welcomed and encouraged to bloom, and to share their beauty with the world.

This sense of safety was more than a simple feeling, it was transformative in deeper ways.

As the blooms opened, they reflected their beautiful light and wonder into all the darkest shadowy places, illuminating where the weeds had callously carved away at the foundations of their community and well-being.

With the power of their combined light and strength, the flowers were able to transform the landscape, heal the air, water, and land. The cleansing light they brought helped them to remove the blight and the decay of the orange filth, and remove the heartless weeds that thrived on cruelty.

These weeds could not understand or contain the power of love and truth. In fact, they dared not even touch it- and so instead, they shriveled away and withdrew.

As the weeds were starved of attention and removed from the landscape, everyone else found themselves better able to survive, and better able to bloom.

And so they all did exactly that- they grew more wondrous and bloomed.

~

Last Night

I dreamed I was riding on an elephant.

Strange, to be sure – I have never ridden an elephant while I was awake.

It was a magnificent sensation, to find myself safely on its back as it rose to full height from my very low place, bearing me along with effortless grace. The world unfurled before us in organized wonder, clearly and conveniently arrayed from my perch.

I could feel the muscles of its enormous back and legs as they moved forward, creating a unified stability in their disparate and mighty individual motions. A wholeness of immense power with the ability to rip itself asunder, borne of a tender regard and love which prevents this from happening.

Awareness is sitting here.

Such a powerful experience, such a wonderful conveyance along my journey to deeper understanding.

I will sit and I will watch. All that I am seeking is hiding behind patience.

I find friendship in my presence.

I will do all in my ability to honor this friendship, to tend as dearly as even my most clumsy self is able – with love and compassion.

This elephant bore me along, apparently relieving me of the confines of some sort of mucky trap I had wandered into. Gratitude surrounds us as the wind blows through our hair, enveloping each step and every moment, step after deliberate step defining our progress – with every step another breath and fleeting awareness.

Free at last, I embrace each moment.

From the back of the elephant, I not only saw the entirety of the surrounding landscape and where I needed to go – I saw that we were already walking in this direction.

I remember now to look for the monkey and the rabbit. Surely, they are sitting here with me.

Together we watch the universe unfold, passing the pipe among us.

‘twas ever thus.

~

Here we go again

July 2, 2020

Checking in and marking off another day in paradise…

I’ll try to keep this positive, despite all the trouble in the world right now.

In catching up with life, the universe, and everything, here are some quick points to make about the last 6 months:

  • I’m fine, despite the rumors to the contrary.
  • Learned some things, and found some new perspective – more to come.
  • Lost some “friends”, but got my sanity and life back, so a good trade overall.
  • Reunited with some old friends and we got the band back together- even if it was only for a limited set.
  • Ultimately, I found my way back to the place I need to be despite the chaos of the world and the lousy company I was keeping. I’m working on my routine so I can be here more often…

Don’t have a clue what I’m talking about?

That’s OK, it wasn’t meant for you – and no worries. It don’t mean shit Mr. Natural!

Mr Natural sez: For this moment in time, I have your attention... I have YOUR attention! Did you know that attention is power? Then Mr Natural sits in his chair with an empty speech bubble above him.
Mr. Natural knows more than you. Believe it!

For those of you who do have a clue, consider your next move carefully. I know a man with a hog farm…

Situation Normal?

Let me be blunt for a minute. The “new normal” sucks. It sucks even worse watching people be dicks to each other.

But I remind myself and you that these people are scared and out of touch with their potential to be decent. We need inspired minds to find ways to bring healing and compassion back to the forefront of everyone’s minds.

What a challenging time to be practicing compassion and tolerance! So many asses needing a good solid kick…

Important to Remember

Still, I am grateful for the blessings in my life, and I am cautiously working towards a better tomorrow.

Among the blessings in my life is a network of people who continue to show the better side of humanity, for no reason other than it is what they believe is the right thing to do.

The situation is challenging but it is not hopeless, and we are not alone in our efforts. Thank you all for just trying to be decent people – I shudder to think about what it would be like without your efforts.

In keeping things positive, here is a small sampling of the moments that have caused me to pause and appreciate everything and nothing at all in the past year:

Old truck covered with rust and faded paint with a purple motorcycle leaned against it, in similar state of disrepair. A giant geranium grows up between the two.
Two miles away…
Bright orange flower
Ben’s flowers from the corner.
Three light orange, almost peach-colored flowers.
More of Ben’s flowers.
Sunflower
One of Ben’s sunflowers.
Sun setting over the Pacific Ocean and Marin County coast.
Sunset over the Pacific from Marin Coast.
Sunset from Penitencia Creek Trail
Sunset over San Jose from Penitencia Creek Trail.
The Midnight Creeper - orange cat from my neighborhood.
The cat who likes to visit in the middle of the night.
Group of flowers with red/fuschia edges fading to white on the inside with bright yellow centers.
Ben grows a lot of flowers.
Cannabis: Lem OG x Kirkwood from 2019
I grew different kinds of flowers.
Cannabis close-up, rosin glands and pistils.
A close-up of some of my flowers.
Vultures in a tree waiting for me, forming silhouettes against the pale morning sky.
These guys are always watching and waiting…
Polar bears crowded into a lifeboat with an EPA (environmental protection agency) flag, where the A has been created with the Anarchy symbol.
Graffiti for nature.
Cannabis being inspected during harvest.
Harvest time…
single abandoned boxing glove
Abandoned low-level weapon in my neighborhood.
Peace Love Unity Respect spray painted on a building.
Good ideas.
Another mystic morning from the mountain.
Where the kind grows.
Sunset from San Jose
Another beautiful day comes to an end…

Peace out you freaks!

Hello World!

So it begins- another blog, yet again…

’twas ever thus- and yet it never was quite like this. Another golden Sunday afternoon in paradise.

Yet all is not as it appears, and truth is so often stranger than fiction.

Subtle ripples can reveal hidden currents and rocky bottoms.

Distractions and the interruptions between making plans, that’s what life is made up of.

Sometimes you have to read between the lines.

But most importantly, you should try to have fun.

🙂

So I bring an introductory disclaimer, as a matter of due diligence: I apologize for nothing, if you don’t like something I post, then you’re more than free to take a hike- and keep your opinions to yourself. This place is for my own selfish needs, I post what I want, when I want, for whatever crazy reason that might seize my fancy.

’nuff said.

If you do want to engage on a deeper level, then go ahead and register, so you can leave comments. I’ll think about letting you in…

Meanwhile, I’ll be doing what I do, and I will see you around-

Peace!