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Alive and Kicking – December 17, 2022

The shadowy author standing in front of the watering hole with sun low in the horizon.
We meet again…

It has been a long cold while since I posted an update of any sort.

In an effort to not post a stream of inane garbage, I have self-censored and delayed everything into nothing.

Now for my next amazing trick, I will resurrect this corpse of a blog from the dead…

Considering Social Media from Self-Inflicted Solitude

“Nothing we see or hear is perfect. But right there in the imperfection is perfect reality.”

Shunryu Suzuki

I have largely withdrawn from the interwebs and have been considering their role in my life.

Some of these things are simply amazing, and stand as marvels of humanity’s progress and achievement, while so much of the rest is just terrible.

Most insidious is the effect it can have on your psyche and daily trajectory, dissolving your time and focus into nothingness and/or creating a sense of urgency and importance where there frankly is none.

Time and time again, I see the primary constant is the exploitation of people’s attention. Little nuggets of value are sprinkled among the never-ending flow, just enough to keep your primal attention span engaged.

I don’t like the idea of being manipulated, nor being used like some farm animal.

I’ve always admired the monkey who was smart enough to open his own cage and escape the lab.

So I choose freedom and reconsider my associations. I conceive a new plan…

an egret surveys a stretch of shoreline

Goodbye Facehole and Fuck Off Twitter

I don’t want to be anti-social, I just don’t believe I’m being well-served by the current paradigm. I see a growing trend among other like-minded individuals.

Oh yeah, and fuck Elon Musk.

Recognizing the traffic gathering down at the water hole doesn’t mean you have to drink that mess. You can still interact with everyone who gathers there without putting yourself deeply in the middle of the muck.

No longer shall I feed my content to the behemoths who only manipulate and exploit for their own ends (and shit all over the water hole in the process).

I will give them breadcrumbs to starve on, and divert interested parties to a place where I control the narrative – literally.

Lost in the Static: My Own Streaming Service

a very well camouflaged night heron makes an early appearance

No illusions or allusions of grandeur here, but I can’t help but consider the trend of every media studio trying to set up their own streaming media subscription service. The “big networks” are quickly becoming an antiquated concept, and a new way of engaging with media is emerging where there are more options and less amazing stuff gathered in any one place.

Except for Disney+ maybe.

Bastards…

And so it goes with blogs as well. I’m fully aware of the traffic stats here. This is an exercise in growth and discipline, not a narcissistic plea for your attention.

I also see the latest trends with Facebook and Twitter as illustrating a similar and growing movement, as people withdraw and reorganize around different solutions.

I like this.

Network = Net Worth

I will use them for my own design.

I will use their network to grow my own, and in the process push them a couple of steps out of the food chain.

I will post announcements of new content residing on my blog, like a signpost at the watering hole.

A sign pointing towards an unfiltered source of content. An opportunity to check in for something a little more substantive.

The good stuff is back at the hut.

I Take What I Like

Of course, I am not pretending to abstain from all of the social media and ever-growing content out there.

Don’t be silly.

I will take the best and love it fully, and I will engage and make the most of what the world has to offer.

However, I will be much more mindful of how I engage my attention.

Like any tool, much of what it accomplishes depends entirely on how it is used.

Gratitude

I can’t help feeling like an old dinosaur, as I retreat to my comfort zone and build a base of operations to contemplate the kids on my grass.

I decorate it with whimsy and random indulgences. I celebrate and recognize the influences of what got me here. I try to remember all the wonderful things I have learned and found along the way, things that might help explain or at least entertain.

I will share more frequently, recognizing the value in chronicling the time spent living. For my own selfish reasons, I will document life focused on growth and compassion, and share it freely.

My intention is to focus on the positive as much as possible, but I reserve the right to keep it real when shit gets heavier than normal.

This is an exercise in daring greatly, in living as fully as possible, and giving myself permission to someday find that I have grown.

So let it be written, so let it be done.

the sun sets over the trees around the watering hole.

A Simple Commitment

I will try to add value to the world in some form or fashion. I will try to be both kind and brutally honest. I will try to express my gratitude for each of you and your attention, and share the artifacts of my life with simple honesty, hope, and joy.

Sincerely

Thank you for visiting, and whatever it is that brought you here, I hope you now find yourself richer in some way.

~

Here we go again

July 2, 2020

Checking in and marking off another day in paradise…

I’ll try to keep this positive, despite all the trouble in the world right now.

In catching up with life, the universe, and everything, here are some quick points to make about the last 6 months:

  • I’m fine, despite the rumors to the contrary.
  • Learned some things, and found some new perspective – more to come.
  • Lost some “friends”, but got my sanity and life back, so a good trade overall.
  • Reunited with some old friends and we got the band back together- even if it was only for a limited set.
  • Ultimately, I found my way back to the place I need to be despite the chaos of the world and the lousy company I was keeping. I’m working on my routine so I can be here more often…

Don’t have a clue what I’m talking about?

That’s OK, it wasn’t meant for you – and no worries. It don’t mean shit Mr. Natural!

Mr Natural sez: For this moment in time, I have your attention... I have YOUR attention! Did you know that attention is power? Then Mr Natural sits in his chair with an empty speech bubble above him.
Mr. Natural knows more than you. Believe it!

For those of you who do have a clue, consider your next move carefully. I know a man with a hog farm…

Situation Normal?

Let me be blunt for a minute. The “new normal” sucks. It sucks even worse watching people be dicks to each other.

But I remind myself and you that these people are scared and out of touch with their potential to be decent. We need inspired minds to find ways to bring healing and compassion back to the forefront of everyone’s minds.

What a challenging time to be practicing compassion and tolerance! So many asses needing a good solid kick…

Important to Remember

Still, I am grateful for the blessings in my life, and I am cautiously working towards a better tomorrow.

Among the blessings in my life is a network of people who continue to show the better side of humanity, for no reason other than it is what they believe is the right thing to do.

The situation is challenging but it is not hopeless, and we are not alone in our efforts. Thank you all for just trying to be decent people – I shudder to think about what it would be like without your efforts.

In keeping things positive, here is a small sampling of the moments that have caused me to pause and appreciate everything and nothing at all in the past year:

Old truck covered with rust and faded paint with a purple motorcycle leaned against it, in similar state of disrepair. A giant geranium grows up between the two.
Two miles away…
Bright orange flower
Ben’s flowers from the corner.
Three light orange, almost peach-colored flowers.
More of Ben’s flowers.
Sunflower
One of Ben’s sunflowers.
Sun setting over the Pacific Ocean and Marin County coast.
Sunset over the Pacific from Marin Coast.
Sunset from Penitencia Creek Trail
Sunset over San Jose from Penitencia Creek Trail.
The Midnight Creeper - orange cat from my neighborhood.
The cat who likes to visit in the middle of the night.
Group of flowers with red/fuschia edges fading to white on the inside with bright yellow centers.
Ben grows a lot of flowers.
Cannabis: Lem OG x Kirkwood from 2019
I grew different kinds of flowers.
Cannabis close-up, rosin glands and pistils.
A close-up of some of my flowers.
Vultures in a tree waiting for me, forming silhouettes against the pale morning sky.
These guys are always watching and waiting…
Polar bears crowded into a lifeboat with an EPA (environmental protection agency) flag, where the A has been created with the Anarchy symbol.
Graffiti for nature.
Cannabis being inspected during harvest.
Harvest time…
single abandoned boxing glove
Abandoned low-level weapon in my neighborhood.
Peace Love Unity Respect spray painted on a building.
Good ideas.
Another mystic morning from the mountain.
Where the kind grows.
Sunset from San Jose
Another beautiful day comes to an end…

Peace out you freaks!

Surreal Sunday

Sitting at the kitchen table, looking out the front windows.

Fire burning on hillside with big white plume of smoke blowing.
Fire burning approximately 2-3 miles away.

A fire is burning on the hill, and the Breakfast with the Beatles show is playing on the radio (KOZT.com).

PG&E has turned off the power “for our protection”. The generator is roaring away to power the refrigerator, the internet router, the radio and the charging of devices. But even still, without power the well can’t pump water- so less than optimal conditions, but it could be worse.

Life continues, and we hunker down wishing the best for the single helicopter occasionally glimpsed through the smoke, dropping giant buckets of water that seem ridiculously tiny compared to the size of the fire.

This is the the third year in a row that fire has come to Potter Valley- and I am starting to think of the fire as an unwelcome relative that comes uninvited, eats all your food and trashes your place, brings their lowlife friends over, and then breaks all your stuff before demanding to “borrow” money and finally getting drunk and causing the cops and fire department to be called to your house.

ENOUGH!
Seriously, I don’t want to even think this is the new normal…

To the south of us the situation is much worse, as the Kincade fire is heading towards Healdsburg and Windsor. A grim reminder of what has been and what might again be our fate- like, in a few hours possibly.

Or, the winds might calm down and they might put it out. You have to hope for the best in these situations, as you pack your emergency supplies and bug-out bag…

Meanwhile, my heart goes out to all the refugees who are now traveling as evacuees and hoping their homes and possessions are not fueling the fire. And for those who have already lost their homes, such devastating tragedy can not be adequately addressed with words. Just know you are not alone, for better or for worse.

If this is like past years, the community will come out and you can count on random acts of kindness to throw contrast into the overall scene of sadness. Be grateful, be generous, recognize it is NEVER enough.

Be kind, don’t give up, watch out for your neighbor and don’t lower your guard – anything can happen.

So let it be, all you need is love- and thank you Beatles.

The Elephant

OK I know it’s there, I can see it.

The gap in time since I last posted anything. So much time, so much life, so much change.

I will get into all of that eventually, I’m sure. Meanwhile, here is the break in the gap- the lapse in the pause.

The aquaponics system is out of commission, it met it’s end this summer, due to some malady that happened while I was away.

Symbolic for so much in my life, the pieces are in various states of dis-assembly and cleaning- awaiting the next moment in time they might be put into use.

A reset, a clearing of the decks, a new beginning to mark the ending of an old way of being- I say goodbye and farewell to those who must go, and welcome to those who are here.

Blessed be!